You make me want to cry for you.
I'm screaming on the inside.

I'm Leaving

I'm leaving.
not a friend in sight.
just floating away
like smoke in the wind
ready to drift off into the sky
and become apart of something new.

I pulled a half britney.

why so soon

I sleep until the middle of every day.
I wake up and my brain is trying to break out of my skull,
I can't move my head, my spine is no where to be seen.
The phone is ringing.. my brain is too preoccupied to answer.
Why did you do this to me?
I haven't been right since I met you.
Everything is off balance.
The first time we met, I fell for you...
I hit my head and it hurt me like crazy.
You carried me to the car and cared for me.
I fell, and I fell for you.
My head hasn't been right ever since.
Irrational.
Angry.
Frustrated.
Jealous.
Insane.
When I'm with you, I just want to stab you in the heart with an icicle.
When we're apart... all I want to do is be near you.
You bring out the worst in me,
or maybe its the best.
I always loved my sinister self.
But I'm the only one.
I have to leave this place.
I have to get away from you.
And you ask me why so soon.
And I tell you I just need to leave.
As much as I can't stand being away from you,
that feeling is no where near as great as how much I can't stand being near you.
And you ask me why so soon.
And I tell you its not soon enough.

Dead.

What am I becoming?

worthless
nothing
ugly

I hear that I'm beautiful,
I hear that I'm cute,
I hear that I have a great smile,
I hear that I'm pretty...
but that all fades so quick.

I'm becoming hideous.
My looks don't matter anymore.
All you can see when you look at me is ugly.
hate
anger
frustration
self loathing
depression
emptiness
All you see is a monster.

The way that I feel,
the way that I am...

I'm dead on the inside,
and it shows.