i want to get out so bad that it hurts.
i can feel it crawling through my fingers,
making its way up my arms,
engulfing my back,
spinning up my spine,
seeping into my brain,
it hurts.


this place is holding me back.
this place doesn't inspire me anymore.
this place has too many memories..
most of them bad.
this place clouds my thoughts.
this place tightens my heart.
this place is my hell on earth.

i'm so close to being out of here and i can feel it in my bones every day.
every day it hurts more and more.
i feel like i'm going to break,
but i can't die here.
i wont.